Update on my plan, and some other stuff
Last few days have not been very great in terms of studying. I am trying, but my time management skills and energy levels are just not good enough.
College has started and things are looking, ok at the moment. But if I don’t start working right now, and keep up, I’ll lag behind and that will become a roadblock.
My profs are proper delhi people, want to take advantage out of each and everything. I don’t wanna use any harsh words but you get the idea right.
Anyways, I’ll just go to class and sit there like a stone, no emotions at all.
I was thinking about a few things today. First of all I have stopped greeting people, I have smiling, I don’t blink my eyes, they are steady as that of a drug addict, I don’t give importance to anybody and I am always prepared for a fist fight.
If anybody talks shit to me, I talk back, but no hard feelings.
I won’t talking to a lot of people, really!! When I enter class, I make eye contact with the wall, no emotions on my face. I don’t make eye contact with anybody, I don’t shake hands, I am not even interested in them coming to me and asking me how I am.
Before, everything was fine, everything was good. I was talking and sharing stuff with a lot of people. I sometimes get overexcited and talk a lot, but I am trying to tone it down. No person in college is worth my energy. My work is worth my energy.
I know, I will be missing out on an important aspect of college — the social life, but even when I try hard, I just look desperate, so what’s the point?
I have a few other things, but that I can’t share.